This is kind of weird to blog about because even though I have an active blog, twitter and facebook, I do try to keep at least some of my private life, well, private, but I wanted to share because I'm so relieved and this has been such an interesting/frustrating/scary/growth-filled/all of the above journey.
For those of you who are out of college, you probably know how it feels. However, those of you who have yet to graduate, let me tell you--getting a job right now is no cake walk. ESPECIALLY if you're like me and got your degree in a generic Humanities area like English (and no, I'm not and never have felt called to be a teacher.)
While I've technically been working full-time since graduation in May, I haven't had a firm this-job-will-be-here-for-you-as-long-as-you-need-it job until now. My first job was working out of my home for a company in Texas where I just basically wrote everything they needed to be written (in a nut shell) and I'm currently currently interning (it's paid) in a nearby town at a PR firm. The first job paid well and was fun, but I am somewhat of a social butterfly and felt like I was dying sitting home alone and the distance proved to be an issue. The second job has been wonderful as well, but they can't hire anyone else right now, so this was a temporary job/learning experience. That plus a lot of freelance writing work on the side. Since I finish my internship December 17th, I have been stressing about finding a permanent job--stressing big time.
HOWEVER, two weeks ago my old boss from Residence Life contacted me out of the blue and told me that there was a spot open on his staff if I was interested in applying. (I refrained, but felt like yelling, YES!)
I'll skip all of the details, but basically I went in for two interviews: one preliminary and the other with a panel, a test (called an in-tray exercise) and then a meeting with the Associate Provost and Dean of Students. Long story short: I loved them, they loved me, I passed the background check because the last time I stole something I was five and now I have a job!
Perks? Oh yes:
- Management experience
- New apartment
- No rent/utilities (although I'll pay mine with my sister until she gets a roommate)
- Master's Degree: 80% off.
- Awesome staff/positive environment
- Get to work with/influence some of the brightest and hardest working student leaders on campus
- Normal things -- Salary and Benefits
- Flexible schedule which hopefully translates to ability/time to work on my book
All that being said, I write all of this partially to celebrate, but also to encourage anyone going through a tough time--especially if you're having trouble finding a job or are unhappy in your current one. I literally sent out hundreds of cover letters and resumes and while I came close, I never quite got the job I wanted. It may sound dumb, but it made me feel worthless. I realize how incredibly stupid that is, but let's face it, rejection hurts, especially when you know you would have been great in that position. I know that I'm smart, hard working, friendly and have never once in my life had trouble in a work position, but I still felt like crap.
That said, I want to encourage you to remember God has you in the place you're in for a reason. Looking back I can already see how perfectly everything has aligned, but more importantly, I think I got a healthy amount of time to practice patience and trust that God would provide. (I have never aced these subjects...) That AND I needed to learn/remember that who I am and my worth does NOT come from a job or a relationship or how much money I have and I just want to remind you that neither does yours. You're value as a person doesn't go up or down in relation to how others feel about you.
Remember, no matter what: You're valuable. You're worth it. You're smart. You're beautiful. You're perfect and lovable just the way you are at this very moment.