Sunday, January 31, 2010

I made a button!


Sounds of Laughter, Shades of Life

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Here it is! It took me forever to figure it out, but I did this one myself!

Thanks to all of the friends who helped me out!

If you like reading my blog feel free to take it and post it in your margins! 
Let me know if you have one b/c I'm getting ready (or fixing, as the Southerns say) to put a button section on my blog!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Looking forward to this week!!

Hello Blogfriends,

It snowed big time in Nashville yesterday and we have REAL snow! I love it! I'm at work now, but I'll post pictures asap! 

I have good news to share with you!
I won an award! 
Thank you to Sam!

Also this is a really big week for boyfriend and me!

J. L. (boyfriend) is a songwriter/artist and was selected to play in an ASCAP Writer's Night! This is a big deal!!
He's competing with two other songwriters for the win and also playing with MATT WERTZ

(This is Matt Wertz)

So pray for J. L.! I am beyond excited for him! I think he really deserves this and even to be selected is a really big honor. We're working on fixing up his myspace, but I'll share a link with you all SOON so you can check him out!

Now my turn, I have a phone interview for the job I REALLY want to get for after graduation. I'm nervous and I secretly hate talking on the phone, but I'm looking forward to it! I'd appreciate your prayers. I know if I get the position it will be wonderful, but if I don't God just has something else planned. I'm doing my best to leave it in His hands and let go... so hard. 

We may not win or get the job, but we both feel so blessed having the ability to do what we both love. Yay :) 
Now to spend the rest of the day eating cheese burgers, reading/doing homework, and finishing writing a song with J. L

(P. S. My lovely sister, Jenny Wren, J. L. and I booked our plans for Spring Break... Here's a hint!)

How are you spending your weekend?

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Adventures in Babysitting

Every Monday and a few times a week I babysit probably two of the most adorable boys you'll ever meet. I'll call them G and T on here :) They're 5 (just turned 5) and 7 and I pick them up from school/daycare and hang out with them/do homework with them/sometimes take them to piano lessons/swim practice/etc./etc./etc. until their parents get home.
This is G on the swing he swings on every day after school before getting to the car.

There are times where I have to be the bad guy and tell them things like, "Get out of the tree and come inside or no snack for you," or "Boys, if you can't share your Pokemon cards, we can't play." Putting them to bed is near impossible and G is the best little conman you will ever meet... which is semi-endearing, but mostly frustrating when it's an hour past their bedtime and he's trying to tell me that their mom always lets them eat candy in bed. I swear they think I was born yesterday sometimes :)

But also we've had lots of games of tag, hide and seek, and I've judged several "wrestling" matches. I helped T go from floaties to swimming like a big boy at the pool and cheered on G during his swim meets. I've played "Star Wars" with them... and I'm still not sure if I played it the right way or not, but they seemed to like it! I've loved having them show my which rasberries are the best to eat off of the bushes in their back yard and watching them get excited watching popcorn pop in the microwave.  I've helped them with homework, learning to read, and cleaned scraped knees.

Through their tantrums and giggles, it's all been wonderful!
T after dancing around to KidzBop.

The world is so magical and new to them and I've learned so much from just being round them about them, myself, and have even gained a much grater perspective on life that I never would have had without them. It's crazy to think that what started out as a job has become one of my favorite parts of my life and has, dare I say it, even changed me for the better.

I think Robert Bault said it best when he said,
"The world is as many times new as there are children in our lives."

Monday, January 25, 2010

The Civil Wars

This weekend was crazy. Poor boyfriend is very sick (still)! I'd appreciate any prayers for him! I spent a lot of time taking care of him, however, I was able to get out a little bit and enjoy some great friends, food, and music!

Joy Williams and John Paul White teamed up to form The Civil Wars. Check them out here. They're AMAZING. She is so beautiful and together their talent just blows my mind! I'll do my best to figure out how to try to post a video soon!


These lovely ladies were my dates ^

*Sigh* I love Nashville!

Also, my dear friend Lauren so kindly offered her apartment for a dinner party. We had Mexican.
Great food, great friends :)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Moon River

I'm kind of in an Audry Hepburn mood right now so I thought I'd post a few cute things of hers :)

Roman Holiday has always been my favorite movie of hers. What is yours?

Of course the wonderful Breakfast at Tiffany's by Truman Capote. I just watched Capote last night and you should too. It was incredible and as a writer myself I took so much away from it!

 Sigh, I wish we could still dress like this!

And that is all :) 

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Honor Her

I've wrestled with the word "Feminist" over the past year a lot. After getting out of a relationship where I felt very controlled and used, I quickly embraced, what I thought was, the idea that women should have the same rights as men and I wanted my strength and intelligence to be valued just as much as any man's. However, the more "Feminists" I met... the less I felt like their definition and my definition matched. Their definition seemed to be that they wanted the choice to act like men or women -- the freedom to choose power the power suit or be a stay at home mom. Not to have the same rights and value as man, but to BECOME man. However, I never wanted to be a man because, imho, a woman pretending to be a man will only be a shallow copy and is ignoring the glorious being that she is meant to be.

I feel almost as though the life of a woman is somewhat like the Olympic marathon resulting in the great torch lighting at the Olympic opening ceremony. It's as if at birth God hands every girl a torch and says "run the race and hold this high so all will see."

I see myself holding my torch high, running my race... only to watch other girls and women not only having their torches taken from them (whether by an abuse, societal injustice, or distractions), but I see SO many girls WILLINGLY put down their torches. I am baffled by this. Why is it that we as women think that the less we are, the more attractive or more acceptable we are? Whereas I'm sure some of the Feminists I've met would attempt to go after any man with a torch and push him, I'm equally if not more distraught over those of us who think it's cute to toss their torch aside and skip and/or beg to be carried to the finish line.

Can't we find balance? Do we have to domineer? Do we have to feign unintelligence in order to be accepted? Virginia Woolf spoke of "The Angel of the House" with whom she often struggled and eventually had to kill out of self defense. This angel was that voice which whispers into every woman's ear from time to time, if not always, discouraging her to be anything other the the perfect little girl or housewife. However, as a Christian with my eyes fixed on Christ, I am trying to also remove my angel. Not to embrace anything "bad" but to embrace my search for who I'm meant to be--other than a doll on the shelf.

I'm not saying that traditional roles of women are anything to sneeze at, however! I love my boyfriend dearly and someday I want to get married and have kids. Should I be so lucky financially, it's part of my dream to be a stay-at-home-mom for part of my life. It's not a bad thing, but why can't we be strong and glorious through the God given abilities we already possess instead of hiding who we are? I see so many women take the easy way out and settle for so much--professionally and in the home. Don't settle ladies.  Stretch yourself! Grow intellectually, spiritually, emotionally, and even physically. Be the WOMAN God created you to be and honor her.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Pilates and getting in shape!

I just took my first (real) Pilates class! I needed an extra college credit and I've always wanted to do it.
Man! It was MUCH more difficult than I thought it would be!

I'm doing my best to start eating better, exercising, and drinking water. However, I'm trying to take small steps and trying to work them into my life, rather halfway committing to some huge plan. Right now at this point in my life, that isn't practical.

Here are a few things I'm trying to work in:

1. Drink more water! I'm shooting for 6 glasses a day...
2. Pilates classes. Two a week!
3. Taking the stairs vs. the elevator
4. Eliminating fried foods (or at least trying)
5. Including protein and some sort of leafy vegetable in every meal/snack

What are some health tips/tricks that work for you? 

Monday, January 18, 2010


Right now I'm watching the Bachelor (guilty) and (trying) to do homework, but I'd thought I'd update really quickly. It's been a GREAT weekend filled with friends, fun, and even a short breakfast visit to my parents'. UNFORTUNATELY, not a lot of homework... so I better do that...

BUT before I go, I got bold and decided that I wanted to change my hair! I got bangs and red hair color. Thankfully, my sister, Jenny Wren has an amazing talent for doing hair and I think it looks great!

Here's the before:

And the after:

I love it!  You can't see it THAT well in the picture, but it's very cute :)
Thanks sister :)

Sunday, January 17, 2010

The Wisdom of Dr. King

A great influence of mine and a man I have always admired since I was a child is Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. 

While I'm sure you're looking forward to having Monday off as much as I am, I wanted to leave you with a few of my favorite quotes of his in hopes that they will inspire you too. I look toward Dr. King as an inspiration not just acknowledging his accomplishments in the Civil Rights movement, but in his message of hope and love overcoming all. Dr. King trusted God to use him as a vessel and stood up for what he knew was right.

In times of doubt and struggle, his life and words of wisdom have encouraged and challenged me to not only in my faith, but to be bold enough to stand strong in the face of adversity and to always stand up for what I know is right even when the odds seem insurmountable.

Though he may not live on in the flesh, I pray that his words of love and the power of his courage breath today and always.

"I am not interested in power for power's sake, but I'm interested in power that is moral, that is right and that is good."

"I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear."

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."

"The time is always right to do what is right."

"To be a Christian without prayer is no more possible than to be alive without breathing."

"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope."

"Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it"

 "Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

"Let no man pull you low enough to hate him."

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Last First Day

I love being back at school! Yesterday was my last first day of college! Hurray! I feel beyond ready to graduate and I'm hoping the senioritis doesn't catch up with me too soon. I keep telling myself to "burn out bright"... we shall see how long that lasts.

I'm leaving to go take the GRE in about an hour, though, and I'm nervous! Say some prayers and enjoy pictures of my lovely friends from this week!

Precious :)

Boyfriend came back and life is great :) (Forgive my pants, I was wearing a cute dress and then we started playing a game and I got cold and knew he and Jenn wouldn't mind)

Jennifer got red hair and is, as always, cooler than me. Sister <3

Double date with Laura and Craig. They're so cute :)

 Awesome cup from Buffalo Wild Wings.

And finally I brought a King's cake to my programming meeting and pretty much everyone loved it, but Luke loved it a little too much... ? Haha :)

Have a blessed day!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Fun Facts

Here are a few fun facts about me. Comment and leave a few of your own!

1. I don't eat pork, lobster, or shrimp. Look it up. They're nasty.
2. If I could go back in time I'd like to go to a British pub and sit in on a meeting with the Inklings, although I'd probably just drink water.
3. I'm rarely on time for anything. I'm usually 5-10 minutes late or early for everything. I try to make it early.
4. I'm a Resident Assistant and I love it!
6. I feel REALLY ready to be graduated with college and onto the professional world.
7. I speak Franglish in my head during everyday activities.
8. I stay up late most nights reading poetry and not doing homework/work like I should.
9. I think I have the cutest dog ever. I'm biased I know, but I don't care. :)

Nashville "Blizzard" 2010

So, Nashville had a "blizzard" recently. With a whopping accumulated inch of snow, it was quite pathetic, but since I no longer live in heaven on earth (Colorado), it will do for now.

Here's some pictures :)
Haha gotta love it!


And we can't forget the puppy prints... 

Friday, January 8, 2010

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

I was driving earlier today in the snow with my iPod on shuffle and Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah came on. I wasn't really in that kind of mood, but with the snow falling on my windshield it the peacefulness of the song fit perfectly into the serene scenery.

I was really struck by the lyrics:

Love is not a victory march,
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
It's not a cry you hear at night
It's not someone who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Listening to these words and taking in the moment, it occurred to me that this is one of the happiest times of my life. No, it's not without trial and tribulation, but all things considered, I have great friends, great family, I'm in love, and I feel like my future looks bright. However, it was just over a year ago that I felt so far from where I am today. I had my friends and family, but instead of celebrating life with them, I was mourning a loss of myself and frightened to the very core of my being that with the death of my old self, there would be nothing. In all reality, I was broken.

It may sound weird to say, but I feel like I really identify with these lyrics not because my I feel "cold and broken" at the moment, but because I've been there and I learned what Hallelujah means to me. It's knowing that in the deepest darkest moments, God not only loves you, but He surrounds you with loved ones. What's more, living on the other side of that, I may not feel the need for their support as much, but I am so much more aware of God's love and the love of my dear ones that looking back to those bittersweet times makes me feel alive and so humbled.

"And every breath we drew was Hallelujah"


Thursday, January 7, 2010

Happy Birthday Love

I know this is really cheesy, but it's my boyfriend J. L.'s birthday today! I just wanted to dedicate this post to him and say that he's the best and I thank God for him everyday. I never knew I could feel this way about someone and I never knew I could be myself like this with anyone.

Happy Birthday J. L.!

Monday, January 4, 2010

New Camera!

I have been saving up (forever) for a new camera and I finally got it! My Canon Powershot! :) Here are a few pictures from our little the camera's christening. I named her Eilee.

We are pretty much the most fun ever. Fact.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Can't sleep

and all I can think about is I don't want to pay what most of my peers are willing to pay for "success." I don't care about money or cars or achieving great feats in any field.

That's not my American dream.

I don't want to gain the whole world to lose my soul. I've grown quite attached!

Friday, January 1, 2010

My happy list

12 things that make me a happy camper

12. Coffee shops dates with loved ones
11. Time alone to just read and write
10. Eskimo kisses and holding hands
9. Listening to a song that defines how you feel at that moment
8. Fresh sheets
7. Fancy and beautiful things
6. New York Cherry Cheesecake Ice Cream
5. Giggling with my sister
4. Embarrassing stories
3. Good conversations with random strangers
2. My dog sleeping on my lap
1. Getting those smiles that say "I love you" from old friends, new friends, family, and bf :)

New Year/New Leaf

Things to do in 2010

Run more (Recent discovery = I like to run. Who knew?)(P.S. Never buy an invisible fence for your dogs. I don't know that they're there and your giant galloping dog scares me!)
Gluten free baking nights with Lauren.
Have a fondue party.
Get a big girl job... Please, Jesus?
Get a nice camera (Any suggestions? Also, by nice I mean less than $200. I'm not one of those people.)
Road Trip. Plans are TBD.
Visit an IKEA. Yes. Please.
Keep up with my francais.
Learn HTML. (HTMLing? Is that correct? I'm not sure...)
Nail down my next degree.
Blog more. Mmmhmm.
Work on my book! Ah! Poor Melvin... He is frozen in time.
Send out a Chirstmas card. I did that once and it was great.
Go to a beach. It's about time for a sunburn.
Get organized. Especially my purse. It's a mess in there.

Things not to do in 2010

Shop at Walmart.
Stay up late.
Eat corn (The European's say it's what makes us all fat. We shall see...)
Drink Diet Coke*
Eat processed food. I'm a great cook and there's no reason for eating as much junk as I do.
Spend money. Ever again.**
Talk to people who use words like "profesh" and other obnoxious words. You're not so busy that you can't say the whole word. I don't care who you are (Donald Trump!)

*This is not going to happen. Maybe I'll try these instead. They're delicious.
**This is also not going to happen.

The End for now.