Friday, February 6, 2009

When I grow up

I think I'm finally figuring out what I want to do for a career. Thankfully, I'm no longer being pushed into teaching or anything else I don't want, but with this freedom, I think I've found something I will truly love: Grant Writing. As most people know, I want help people and feel most fulfilled when doing so. Otherwise, I just feel like this life is so pointless. Anyway, I heard this song the other night on the radio and it reminded me of the first time I REALLY started to think about social unjustice and the like. So here you go. Sorry for the ramblings :) 

Boys and girls wanna hear a true story?
Saturday night I was at this real wild party,
They had the liquor overflowin' the cup,
About 5 or 6 strippers tryin to work for a buck, and I took one girl outside wit me,
Her name was Lonni, she went to Jr. High wit me,
I said, Why you up there dancin' for cash?
I guess a whole alots changed since I see you last
And she said,

What would you do if your son was at home,
Cryin' all alone on the bedroom floor
Cuz he's hungry, and the only way to feed him
Is to sleep with a man for a 
Little bit of money and his daddy's gone,
Somewhere smokin' rock now, 
In and out of lock down,
I ain't got a job now,
So for you this is just a good time, 
But for me this is what I call life.

Girl you ain't the only one wit a baby 
That's no excuse to be livin' all crazy,
Then she looked me right square in the eye
And said every day I wake up hopin' to die,
She said, "N***a I konw about pain cuz
Me and my sister ran away so my daddy couldn't rpae us,
Before I was a teenager I been through more shit,
That you can't even relate to

What would you do if your son was at home,
Crying all alone on the bedroom floor
Cuz he's hungry, and the only way to feed him
Is to sleep with a man for a 
Little bit of money and his daddy's gone
Somewhere smokin' rock now
In and out of lock down
I an't got a job now,
So for you this is just one night, but for me this is
My whole life.

What would you do?
Get up on my feet and let go of every excuse
What would you do?
Cuz I wouldn't want my baby to go through what I went through
What would you do?
Get up on my feet and stop makin' up tired excuses
What would you do?
Girl I know if my mother can do it baby you can do it.

What would you do if your son was at home,
Cryin' all alone on the bedroom floor
Cuz he's hungry, and the only way to feed him
Is to sleep with a man for a 
Little bit of money and his daddy's gone,
Somewhere smokin' rock now,
In and out of lock down,
I ain't got a job now,
So for you this is just a good time, but fore me this is what I call life.

-City High 

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And so I guess it's things like that, where people just need a little bit of help to get started on the road to who they are capable of being, that make me want to do whatever I can to "help." 


3 comments:

rivalee sunshine said...

wait - so you want to be a stripper?

Maybe I'm Amazed said...

haha no :) I want to help people so they don't have to resort to that :) I LOVE YOU THOUGH BECKA!!!

Laura. said...

oh my gosh. i loved that song when it came out!

i mean, yes it's depressing a little..but so good.