Saturday, January 31, 2009


I'm tired of people making abortion an issue of politics, or even "religion."


I've learned recently that there are two types of people who support abortion. The first being those who do not believe that a fetus is a living being and therefore has no problem doing away with it. The second is those who are in support of eugenics (ie. the founder, and many current day employees, of Planned Parenthood).  

I'm not even going to address that blatant racists who would support "terminating a pregnancy" in order to serve the purpose of killing/having less black/minority babies. That is just sick.

However, to the other group of people I wish they would only understand this:

The issue is not a mother's choice. The issue is not paying for your mistakes. The issue is not to keep women in the home. The issue is none of those things.

The issue is this, and only this:


If not, I don't see the problem with abortion. But if so, and as scientific research supports, we are killing the MOST innocent and MOST vulnerable in our world before they ever get a chance to take a breath. This is a question of ethics, not politics. This blog was inspired by the Freedom of Choice Act.
For  a short review click here.

"I feel the greatest destroyer of peace today is abortion, because it is war against the child, a direct killing of the innocent child, murder by the mother herself. And if we accept that a mother can kill her own child, how can we tell other people not to kill one another?" - Mother Teresa 

Sunday, January 25, 2009


I don't really have a lot to blog about as of late. I've been so busy!

I have nothing other than to say that I just want to give the Glory to God for blessing me with such amazing friends and so many opportunities. I'm so thankful that even through Hell on Earth, He has been so faithful. He's taught me so much in the last six months. I'm well aware I'm not done learning, but I'm so thankful for everyone He has surrounded me with. Whether it's my crazy, fun, quite, understanding, or encouraging friends, He really has provided so much in the way of emotional needs. I've laughed and felt so loved by so many and I've been able to be vulnerable and cry with others as well when necessary. I really think that has been all His doing. I don't know that everyone gets a burning bush in life, but I feel that the warmth and kindness that others have shown me and we have shared has been my sign from Him that despite all the crap that has happened, He doesn't let go. I think bit by bit I'm gaining back my faith in the human heart.

"What man uses for evil, God uses for Good."

My God is Mighty to Save.

Friday, January 16, 2009

"For millions of years flowers have been producing thorns. For millions of years sheep have been eating them all the same. And it's not serious, trying to understand why flowers go to such trouble to produce thorns that are good for nothing? It's not important the war between sheep and flowers?" 

I love the book The Little Prince because it is so utterly profound. As I have always interpreted it, the flower represents a woman, the sheep represents the "careless" men (or even other women) who do nothing but consume, and the Little Prince represents a true understanding of love (even though he gets taken advantage of by his flower at times, he always loves her). 

While I feel that I am more of a Fox than a Flower, I think I have grown some thorns in an attempt to keep myself from hurting like I have been, but it's true that thorns are good for nothing. However, I think my world view has changed a lot these past few months and I've started looking at people not just for their thorns, but I've become more aware of the war between sheep and flowers and the cause of those thorns. 

"Men have forgotten this truth," said the fox. "But you must not forget it. You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed. You are responsible for your rose." That being said, "You run the risk of a few tears when you allow yourself to be tamed." 

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Growing Pains

Sometimes I'm so thankful for the blessings, friends, and everything that I am, have, and can be. Sometimes (like now) I'm just very aware that I'm in a very rough part of life. Sometimes I just wish Jesus would come back now so I don't have to deal with the pain and the questions of worth. Sometimes I just wish I could have my faith in love and people back. I'm getting tired of crying. 

I had a friend compare our walk with God to running up the down escalator--if you're standing still you are going down. But I don't know that he's right. If he is I'm screwed, but I have not the strength nor the will in my heart and soul to run. With a heart so broken, ALL I want to do is rest it and pray that someday it will be okay. That being said, I like to think of my walk with God as taking me on a hike up a mountain. I'm higher up than I used to be, but right now I need Him to carry me. Because I can't do it on my own. I just can't. 

And the funny thing is that although sometimes I feel like I don't have the strength to do anything but exist, I have a feeling... I'm on my way to where I need to be, somewhere wonderful and somewhere where I'll be okay... and maybe the best/scariest part is I'm not walking, just being carried and that is oddly comforting. 

"Finally free, finally strong,
Somewhere back where I belong" - Switchfoot 

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


One night a few summers ago I went to the Kroger with Jennifer at about midnight to get a late night snack and I heard something I never wanted to hear. As we were checking out in the self check-out we overheard two men talking... loudly. However, as we listened (we couldn't help but hear, there were only the four of us in that area of the store and it was dead silent) we were horrified to find hear one man giving the other man tips about where to find the best places online to find porn--more specifically where to find pictures of high school aged girls...


And every time I go to the grocery store I see him and completely avoid him. 

I've considered throwing him nasty looks, kicking him in the shins, and/or exposing him for his dirty secret.

But I wanted to get if off my chest here and say that I hate man whores. I know Jesus loves them, but I'm not going to lie... I don't have ANYTHING close to loving thoughts or attitudes for him... AHH! Men are so gross. 

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Never thought I'd Say

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just want to take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

Cause something's changed
You've been acting so strange
And it's taking its toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, I'm seein myself so differently 
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I'm fine
Without you

Called you up cause it's been long enough 
And you said you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together

Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And it's taken toll on me
It's safe to say that I'm ready to let you leave

Without you, I live it up a little more each day
Without you, I'm seeing myself so differently
I didn't wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought I'd say
I'm fine
Without you
- Without You by Hinder