Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Jesus and...

I'm feeling burnt out on Christianity. I'm tired of Chris Tomlin, smiles, and getting up and dressing up on Sundays. I'm tired of it all. I'm not trying to bash it all and I'm not trying to be negative. I guess more than being burnt out, I'm really longing for Jesus over all of the candles and ceremony. 

It seems like if we have a pretty cross hanging on our wall or if we go to a nice church that has been "financially blessed" that we're somehow convinced that we're doing something right. Even a little bit. It's not that these things in and of themselves are bad, but it's so easy to make them the point... and that just falls short. Derek Webb really said it right when he said concerning our salvation, "When you take 'Jesus and...' to God, anything after the 'and' is a sin." 

It is interesting to note that in the past Christianity was often "sold" out of fear of the fires of hell, but now "christians" today seem to sell "happiness". Even the people I used to think of as the most sincere followers of Christ are now merely selling the gospel at any price. I just don't think that is what God had in mind when He commanded us to love others or told us to carry our crosses. When we look at the reward as anything other than the glory of God Himself, I just can't help but feel like we're putting Christianity into a pretty box... and it was never meant to be contained. 

I guess I'm just frustrated with the abuse and perversion of the one and only thing that can save us... even from ourselves. Even those of us who are not obvious Pharisee clones or aren't outright snake and oil preachers, it just seems that SO many "christians" just... don't get it. At all. That being said, I'm sure I have fallen into this category time and time again, because none of us will ever 'get it,' but I just wish we all (myself included) could want only what God wants.  It's like most of us prefer the pretty box over the hard work ahead. And for about two seconds that makes me so mad, but truly it is just so staggeringly depressing and I have to wonder how God feels about that. 

I know I need to remember all have sinned and fall short of the glory of the Lord. 

Just give me Jesus or give me death. 

Thanks for letting me rant. 

1 comment:

rivalee sunshine said...

this is a good rant, and puts some of my thoughts into good words. this whole semester i didnt go to church very much, and usually it was just cause i was too tired to go be fake with all the other fake people.