Friday, November 28, 2008

Still in Need of a Savior

We have a problem in the American Christian Church. Not "those" Christians, but you and me. We are so uncomfortable with hurt... not the hurt of the "sinner", but the hurt of the Christian. We somehow fool ourselves into believing that once we're saved, nothing bad will ever happen, and for those of us who are unfortunate enough to have misfortune fall upon (or for those of us who don't pray hard enough) we're just supposed to grin and bear it and pretend like just because we know of God's grace, it doesn't hurt as much. Because God can't possibly use a hurt messed up Christian, can He? Sadly, I think many people parading around in the Church as Christians would say yes. 

We expect our brothers and sisters to be just as pretty and picture perfect--inside and out--as we are in our happiness and "blessings". We are so afraid to admit that our "family" could be anything other than God's perfect and chosen people because that means someday WE could possibly be like them (heaven forbid). We are so afraid to admit that they are, and we by association, are still... sinners.... weak... fake.

But that's just what we are when we're so afraid to admit we're weak... we're fake. We try our best to be like Jesus, but we'll never ever admit that we need Him (after our initial conversion experience). We'll find a Bible verse to justify the circumstance or action and move away. We work so hard to pretend like there is nothing wrong-- but really it's Christians who should be the MOST willing to admit when something is wrong--because we KNOW what is wrong, and we know it is DRASTICALLY wrong. We won't help. We won't call other Christians out. We won't mourn. We won't do anything to admit that there could be anything wrong with a fellow Christian, and this begins to convince us that WE (that YOU and I) don't have anything wrong with us. 

I honestly wonder how differently our lives would look, how different the Church would look, if we weren't so concerned with convincing people we are just like Jesus and started admitting that we really NEED Him. 

"I'm scared to wander outside major keys
So I sing a song that I wrote just to please
The fools and the fakes afraid just like me to be honest

So I play pretend with my smile painted on
At best I'm a clown and at worst I'm a con
Convincing the crowd and myself nothing's wrong to be honest

My soul is trembling
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that You're making me

I'm leaving the stage
You can turn my lights down
The curtains are closed
And I'm taking my bow
Lord help me remember
Cause I forget how to be 
Honest

And I rewrote my story without tragedy
Left out the lines that reveal I am weak
Erased every reason for You to save me
To be honest

My soul is trembling 
Knowing they're listening
But all that I need to be
Is all that You're making me

I'm leaving the stage
You can turn my lights down
The curtains are closed
And I'm taking my bow
Lord help me remember
Because I forget how to be honest" 




2 comments:

Laura. said...

good post.

true.

i think we're also afraid to take risks because we're afraid to no longer be "safe."

it kind of goes a long with that, i guess. the avoidance of pain if we can help it.

did you write that song?

Maybe I'm Amazed said...

Hey Laura!

Sadly, no... that is the brilliance of Shaun Groves. :-)