Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Misery is an option

Everything in me that is good is only God. 

Lately I've been feeling punched in the stomach, but to experience His healing like this is just such a joyful experience. I truly feel the spirit of God for the first time in a long time. I see my short comings and find them beautiful because by identifying them I am seeing what has separated myself from Him. It's nobody's fault. It was me turning my eyes from the Lord. And I'm just so excited to be whole and holy again. I pray that you can experience healing like this in life. I don't know God's plan for me or for you. I know what I wish could come true, but even if it doesn't, I feel I have surrendered that to God and I'm just excited for my future husband, career, music, and friends. Also I'm excited to see how He uses those together. I pray you, dear old friend, find this healing and know you are forgiven and set free in God. I do believe in love and I do believe that it will work out in the end, but I don't believe that (even in the darkest times... or what I thought were the darkest times) love dies. Maybe selfishness can win for a moment, but Love will win. I'm excited to love and to passionately love those around me.

I'm finally opening my eyes ... and all I can see is Grace. If only we could have seen Grace was there the whole time. Nothing can stand in the way of God's glory. 

I wish you every happiness 

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