Friday, June 27, 2008


I feel like I'm really learning the difference between happiness and joy lately. 
Happy is great, but it is cheap.
Joy is deep and lasting, even when "happy" is gone. 

God is so good. 
I'm thankful for the good and the bad in my life, for the love and the pain, and the laughter and the tears. God has a greater plan than I can imagine and I just pray that I can make it the easy instead of the hard way. 

Thanks you Jesus for You.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Tick Tock...

I'm starting my junior year of college in 2 months. Well, technically I'm a junior already, but who knows when I'm going to graduate? I don't know if it will be on time or early yet. 

I'm thinking about adding a second minor in education so I have the option to get my masters in one year (instead of two) to get a teaching degree. But again, who knows. 

Ever since I changed my major people keep asking me, "So what do you want to do with that?"

And due to the fact that I've had a lot of alone time lately, that question is beginning to drive me nuts because it has been playing and replaying like a broken record in my head... and I don't have an answer.

I could be a great teacher, but I never wanted to be a teacher. I think I would be great writer, but is that what I'm called to do? Do I write for Christian things? Do I write for Music Business things? 

I used to want to be a lot of things, but really I just don't know where God is calling me. Where is a burning bush when you need it, right? I don't know how one action will change another and don't know how or what to do. I don't know how my personal life will affect my career or visa versa. I don't know where God wants me. Maybe I do but I'm just to afraid? I don't know. I am a plan person. Even if I don't like the end result I like to have a plan.  I still wish I just knew what is going on and what will be going on and I wish I knew and could be happy with the result. I love my life, but I'm afraid to make decisions now because I can't handle if they change later. I guess I'm kind of on hold right now until further notice. The only hard part is not knowing what will come next. 

Thursday, June 5, 2008

I'm pro-child 

God save our children. 
In a country that allows us to have the "option" to kill our children, I'm tired of my government telling me what is and isn't right to do with my (potential) children. I'm tired of my government telling me that I don't have the right to do what I think is best to keep my (potential) children safe, happy, and well educated. 

I'm not laisser faire, but the government needs to learn that it is there to protect us and help us remain free, not to take those things away from us or our children.