I'm a hurting person. I always have been and no matter how great my life gets I always will be.
After becoming a Christian, I'm realizing I'm still human and I'm still in this world. Being "saved" has nothing to do with never getting sick. Being "saved" has nothing to do with my short term happiness. Being "saved" doesn't make me a super-being that is suddenly invincible and incapable of sin. I wish it did, but it has nothing to do with that.
I know Christians always get criticized for being hypocrites. And most of us are--whether we're talking about real, genuine Christians or just those who claim to be Christians. Why? Because being "saved" has nothing to do with earthly perfection. Please, don't look at me. I am striving to be like my Father, but I fumble and fall everyday.
Sometimes in an effort to try to atone for my sins I guilt myself into if I'm sorry enough then God will forgive me. I try to do nice things for people and have a loving heart. But I can't "feel" bad enough or "do" enough to make up for things I know I've done wrong. I know that God's love changes people and I try and try to share that. Why, then, do I get so frustrated when I try and try and try and try and feel like God is getting further and further away?
However, sometimes in an effort to help myself and help others I forget...
It's not about me. I'm STILL in need of a SAVIOR.
My works and my heart are nothing without my faith in Him. Without Him they are meaningless and hollow, for I am saved by GRACE, not works.
"And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in Me"